I feel your ghost again, when I thought you'd gone for real
I thought about calling this post "The Ghosts of Facebook Past" - but that was maybe more lighthearted than I am really feeling.
I believe I mentioned some time ago, my cousin who was arrested for...um...something really bad.
So, he's in prison. Where it is likely he will stay for the rest of his days.
I have considered writing him a letter, and, in fact, on one occasion, started a letter.
Unfortunately, it started, "I am so disappointed" and ended with "WERE YOU EVEN F**KING SOBER IN JUNE WHEN I LET YOU TAKE MY CHILDREN TO RIDE ON THE ROLLER COASTERS WHEN I COULDN'T BECAUSE I JUST HAD SURGERY???"
I didn't feel it was a productive letter. (For the record, I let him walk my children out of our hotel and into the world's best amusement park to ride a 'mid level thrill ride' that I was not able to go on because I had surgery in May. So, he walked with them there and walked with them back, he didn't drive them anywhere. And I am 99% sure he was sober at the time, but I don't have a lot of experience in what a functioning heroin addict looks like when they are high, but I would like to think I would have noticed. Maybe I am fooling myself.)
So I didn't send it. Or finish it.
I read a news story recently that Facebook will make a memorial of your deceased loved one's facebook page...which is nice, but it's not an option for your run-of-the-mill "not dead, but incarcerated forever" loved one.
As such, on a regular basis, when I log in to FB, it tells that I should RECONNECT with said cousin. Or, alternately, that I should "help him find a profile picture" or "write on his wall".
It's like a kick in the teeth every.single.time.
I thought about 'unfriending' him. But I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Tell me, internets - does Facebook kick you in the teeth on a regular basis?
In other cousin heartbreak...Kelsey is still missing. I keep hoping. Hope in a hopeless world, I guess.
*Richard Shindell, You Again